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Some people's children insult their "friends" to all their other "friends." I needed to be blind and deaf during this. It would've saved me a lot of pain.

Names changed to respect privacy:

Sent to Sally:

I was still hearing a bunch of stuff from Lisa about how much she hates the things you do today. I can't take it and I told her off!!!

I asked Lisa this: "Even though I agree at some point in time about some things doesn't mean you have the right to go on and on about everything you hate about somebody. You need to throw in at least 30 compliments to me about Sally to make it up."

Like a child who needs to practice common courtesies.

I am really tired of her rumors. If anyone needs to get a handle on themselves it would be Lisa. We all need to repent and change bit by bit throughout our lives individually as people, but the first step is to acknowledge what one is doing. It's about being nice to one another and starting from scratch and actually trying our hardest to forget each other's faults. She brought so much stuff up that it reminded me of some things about your past. I am sorry for saying that to her. It was a very small thing compared to all the crap she continued to say about you. If I didn't put an end to it she would've continued (as she did yesterday). She needs to admit her faults. She started telling me all about your inadequacies on Saturday and continued until Monday the 15th of June 2020. I believe that she is slowly, but surely tearing me apart from having a good relationship with you and her as well. I think that she is very immature and can't admit when she is wrong. She says that she doesn't spread rumors (rumors are negative facts about people) she does that professionally. If it were her career she would be great at being a media mogul on gossip and spreading dirt.

I sent this all to Lisa to look it over and for her to (maybe) find her faults. It went as expected and her word war was brought to the forefront of the conversation. She wouldn't let down. There was one apology. It was about not being friends with me any longer. I stated over and over again that I want her to stop. Over the phone too. I tried to play neutral for a while, but there were constant impingement's that Lisa kept bringing up about you that I just got sick of. Stating that I wanted her to simply stop just fueled her fire even more. I don't need someone in my life like that! It's purely ridiculous that she doesn't have anything better to do than to hold you close and push everyone else away. I am distraught and sad about the way she treated me and you. She needs to say sorry to me and give me many, many compliments about you as a challenge (She needs a little nudge to do what is right in life as does everyone). Rumors, hearsay, and gossip are cruel, horrible ways to talk.

This is what was said by Lisa since Saturday about you.

I copied and pasted them exactly how they are on Facebook Messenger. She is destroying every ounce of respect for herself with each deteriorating statement digging herself deeper and deeper in the hole of self righteous platitude!

Sent to Lisa on Monday:

Me: This is the shit you talked about Sally please look over it and make sure you're correct! because being right is always more important than being nice, correct?

From Saturday night on with Lisa and I:

Me: I'll miss you tonight personally if you're not going. Anyways. Have a good night, but I would like you to go hang out with me and my friends.

What do you mean. I want to go. She did not want to go. She is way ocd right now.

She had no right telling you. Her and I were still talking.

Me: She is picking me up at 4:40. If you and her can come together that would be a plus, but if I could go hang out with you on Monday, I could take the mat home then. It's up to you two.

She cares more about money than our friendship. I have bent over backwards helping her with getting her bed out of the way. Because her dad kept bitching. And the trundle was in her way. Now I am storing her bed over here. I am not buying her bed anymore. Because she wants $130.00 or no deal. I do not think it's worth that much. I cannot even sell my queen. She had no right saying that I was not going. If she will calm down her ocd I would go.

And stop playing the poor game

And wanting more than gas money from me. I told her I will give her $5. But I guess she did not like that. I told her hopefully you and your friend could give five too. She is the one that never wanted to go in the first place. I told her that we cannot do that to you. She just said I have a lot to unpack. I said you always will.

Tell her that. She sends things to me online to buy. She gets a high and tries to get me to shop for more. If I say no. I cannot afford that. She gives me that look and says you sure. Then she acts like a two year old. It's hard. All she ever wants to do is go to Walmart for fun.

Me: hmm

Me: yeah

Yes you are right.. I already told her I did not want to buy her bed anymore

 But that I would store it here for her until she does. She got all defensive.

I'm serious. Selling my bed and buying hers has worn me out. I'm tired.

This is all about $10.00

That is more important to her than our friendship.

She has said you have money but you and Mary waist it.

It's ocd. And she has stopped getting help since the covid.

She calls but the lady never picks up. She was working on that. But I have to keep reminding her to do it.

Yep. I know she wont get 130.00 for that bed. One of the mattresses is shot. Even a spring coming out. There are tape Mark's on her bed frame. She won't bother with taking it off herself. Looks tacky.

Tell her to get help. No matter the covid. She is working on Tom's stuff. And he has gotton tid of a lot. But she may have one or two boxes. Her dad brought all the boxes from her room to her house yesterday. She was out catering to Kellie all day.

So what can I do about tonite?

Do you blow all your money?

I never see you buy a meal at dennys.

Not that I mind sharing. Just asking.

I was so excited about getting out.

Do you have five to give her?

She does not need your help. She. Just is panicking cause she spent a lot of money on items for the house. She complained about prices to me

 I told her she could get something cheaper for 9. Don't give her money for food. She is playing you. I wish you and Tom would talk to her about being out of control. Don't you care about her that much? Now she will be expecting 25.00

Tom paid all the rent this month.

She has enough. She is just being stingy.

She doesn't even care that I am not going.

All she says to me is fine.

I have been so exhausted since she moved in. She likes to stay busy and is up late. I have to set my boundaries.

Me: eating. sorry. hold on.

It is five?

Where is Sally?

Why are you eating? You're going out.

Ok. Is Sally there?

Ok well I hope she is coming.

I'm going to do my hair. 

Me: what way? Color, style, ...?!

Me: she's here... talk soon. i'm sorry :-(

.straighten. I was going to get all dolled up. I have not been out in a long time. I can't believe she messed with you and got a free meal. She doesn't even care how much I would be spending. She already sobbed her way into me about the meal. When we let her do that. We are not helping her illness. Unless you owe her money.

This party is all about her. She doesn't care about the birthday girl. She told me she could not get a gift. Even though I told her we could put a ribbon 

Around it

  She is all fake and acting needy. I do not let her act that way with me. I paid for so many of her meals before her ssi. But she is still the same.

My sister is a professional on online ads. She has had a business for years. She said both our beds will probably only sell for 50.00. That people anymore just want the frame. About daybeds. I sent her photos of that. She told me they are metal,rickety,and it's too old. That I should not do this exchange at all.

That if I cannot sell my bed for 100.00 that the daybed will be harder to sell then my queen. I will just let Sally find out on her own.

Me: Hmm

No comment??

Me: A very funny comment of uh huh.

Are you playing?

Morning. I just sold my bed for 80.00. Yeah. But now I'm going to be sleeping on my couch. I am giving Sally her comforter back.so that will give me 20.00 more dollars. That will make 100.00 dollars. She gave me linen for her bed. Now she is using that against me. You do not have to say anything to me. I'm just venting. Maybe she could sell a few sheets to me. Her and I talk through our sales book.

Where have all the same people gone? I must find one person who does not cater to her mental state. That is not  a good friend that feeds her illness and then talks about her problem with others.

My sister wants to tell her off. And to come get her bed out of my home. 

They are not rumors. And you sometimes agree as well. I think I am just spending too much time with her. I won't bother you again.

Bull shit.

You stop. We were working it out. You lied about staying neutral. She talked to you at dinner about me. You lied about buying her a 20 dollar meal. You lie to her when you talk behind her back. I was keeping what you said about her private. But no more. You should have told me the truth that it was bothering you! I talked to you about the bed situation so did she. Now you are breaking my confidence in some man I thought was my trusting friend. I am not going to keep your words private. She already knows how I feel. I tell her the truth, anything I tell you I have already expressed it to her. Now you are taking my confidential text and trying to use that against me! Carolyn is so right about you. You live to humanize. You get on YOUR knees and pray to our heavenly Father. For your sins. Smoking, drinking and playing women against women. I do not lie or spread rumors about her. You just were not man enough to tell me to stop trusting in you. I have told her everything I have said to you and everything you have said about her. You brought this on yourself. Shame on you using me to make things worse. Sally and I do not need you taking care of our friendship.

Me: That was all the crap you talked about Sally and me. I bet you're talking to Sally about me right now. Because I'm always the big bad wolf right? The reason why I don't let anybody talk crap about anybody else around me is because I hate this.

Me: You two just need to say sorry work it out and stop talking to me about crap that you want to talk about to me. Just stop. yes it bothers me.

I wasn't bothered at first because I thought you would be done. but when it continued and continued and continued I got pretty pissed off.

Her: Why did you not say so?

Me: I did and you blamed me for it. I said you need to stop multiple times. It should be obvious that talking crap about somebody isn't a good thing especially when it continues. Do you have a counselor? It might be good. My friends have talked crap about each other sometimes and I always tell them overtime, that when it gets out of control, they need to stop telling me. 

Me: I bet you're going to insult me instead of calming down and making things right.

AND  HERE YA GO:

You even agreed to some of her ocd hoarder things. I have already told her all of this. I am sorry Russell. I was stressed and talking I thought to a friend. But why are you trying to use that against me? I do not spread rumors about her. (HAHA! Right!) I was talking out my frustrations with what I thought was a friend. I get sick of your blogs online. (Then don't read them, I hope she reads this one though KARMA!). I get sick of listening to you when you are blabbing online.(Then don't do it). But I never use it against you or tell you to pray to the lord. (I asked her to pray about the way she has been acting because it hurts people and it's out of line). I do not need a friend like you. (If this is how you treat your friends... WOW!) The trust is gone. I'm sorry to go on. But I am not a criminal (Yeah. I told her I stole something once). Please this conversation is over you have made your point.

Me: There you go insulting again. Who do you not insult?

Me: I really don't like the fact that you think you can say anything to me and not get me upset. These are my friends you're talking about. even though I agree at some point in time about some things doesn't mean you have the right to go on and on about everything you hate about somebody. You need to throw in at least 30 compliments to me about Sally to make it up. If you do not I don't want to see you ever. It's kind of a harsh punishment, but now you are getting all of the things that you know about me and I know are wrong and throwing that in my face. You do the same to Sally. You do the same to all of your friends, I'm assuming, because if you do it to me and Sally, who are your closest friends, who else would you do this to? You find one fault and you find another and you find another and you throw it in their face at the end of the day when there's a small argument.

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Just reading it over I get so tired of the thoughts that bounce around in that ladies brain. It's sickening!

Welp, with that I'll leave you with: Please talk nice to each other and about each other. If there is nothing nice to say, make something up or don't say anything at all. There are very creative ways to make compliments. Practice always helps. Lisa is nice until she's done with you. She will throw you away like she does while cleaning up her pretty house. She keeps it nice and tidy. She always has popcorn for movie night, and her thoughts stink and need to be taken out like her pretty little house does every day.